Im still reading Kurt's journals and biography. This guy was amazing. Im only to when hes 23 though. I cant wait to read more. His life sounds a bit like mine. Hes fascinating you know. As ive said before...on here or xanga I cant quite remember.

    I have a conumdrum.
                                           christmas

 My brother wants to come out...But I might not be here. I havent seen his beautiful and slightly forgotten face since i was around 10. Bloody hell. What shall I do. I miss him like hell. Then again I want to go on my trip...but then on the other side if I go I have to wait a couple more years to see him. *sigh*. Sometimes the worst that life throws at us is a little too fustrating. Hes going to graduate college in AZ in a couple years. I wonder what he'll do with his life. Maybe just stay co-manager of that world wide comapny. Its quite an accomplishment for a 20y.o. dont you think? I remember when we were little and hed help me with everything. I remember my older sister and how I always wanted to be exactly like her...it wasnt fair...hah. Thats all still the same. I kind of yearn for the loving and attention from them that I never got from parents/if they were still in the picture...or from anybody. I guess thats why I'm so immature. Im still looking for my childhood. Still wanting but pushing away the affection I need. Because I know soon it'll all go away. So I look for things in my friends. Im always the problem solver...why is that? Everybody comes to me expecting amazing and profound advice HAH...or at least a few friends do. It doesnt really annoy me though...to know Im need, I like that feeling. To be a part of something...but i think maybe I ruined it all when it became a little fustrating with my own problems and such and I kindof avoiding giving help. Hmm...that sucks doesnt it.

   So what has happened in the crazy life of Kaity whilist I havent been posting. You shall soon find out...oh youll find out....

   First things first...I think Ill go in order but whenever I say that...it never happens...but I'll try

#1: Haunted House an hour away with Krissy and Kathryn:
-Oh boy...the ride up, I called Phil, all of us talked to him and it twas fun

-Thong fight...I think everybodys ass was currently being flossed by the soft material of our thongs as we chased eachother around in the car trying to stay between the yellow lines of the road to gleefully pull eachothers thongs up and trying to do the cartoonish thing of pulling them over the other persons head. Now if I do say so myself...Kathryns thong was HELLA pulled and streched because it didnt really use elastic to pull against her body. And the jeans she was wearing made it a joyride veiw for any man in eyesight.

-We talked about our boobies
....We called Kathryn cardboard because anyone who knows her knows about her bras...i dont want to say this on the internet because that would be cruel so lets just say. Shes not a pack mule.
...Krissys boobies are fun to squish because...well..theyre squishy, shes like a b or a c or something
....then theres poor little Kaity whos always clowned on because her boobies are like...huge...AND ITS NOT MY FAULT IM TRYING TO SHRINK THEM...its just not working. Everybody enjoys poking and squishing and touching them...and I dont know why. Its not that big of a deal to have large breastesses such as myself. They just get in the way.

-Fighting. Whever Krissy and Kathryn go they always fight. Quite amusing if I do say...sometimes its scary...its like a soap opera comedy. You laugh, you cry, you scream, and you grab somebodys penis.

-So we get there, buy the tickets and get in line. We're behind these two guys and whoever theyre with. One of them was cute and Kathryn kept like pushing me into him. I think he got annoyed. So when we were about to go in they were like "Oh you guys go ahead of us and well go by orselves" and everybody wnated me to be in front. But I didnt want to be. So I kindly asked them if they would go infront of me with us. They said okay. And so I warned them whoever was in front of me im going to grab when I get scared. So the cute one stood in front of me saying he didnt mind. I felt so special...even though he probably just wanted Kathryn to be behind him groping his ass. Because see going places with Kathryn is...kinda depressing, because shes gorgeous, and Im not...so its just like, I sit and wait for the men to grope her and pick up her number, use stupid lines or whatever, and after im done like kicking myself for being so damn notgoodlooking we go somewhere else...and the same rutine runs again. But anyway...we went through it and I stayed close to this mystery name lad and sucessfuly DO grope him like 19 times. Then we come to a room with spiders...if you know me you know I have aracnaphobia and I HATE spiders...he blocked the door so we couldnt get out, I was pushing on him to move but he laughed at me. lol. It wasnt funny though. So this ended and we get in the car...and drive off.

-Car ride back...Everybodys basically exausted but we want to go do something. So we think of Moonlight Bowling over at whever the hell that place we go is. But its too late to do that. So then we think of Fun Station USE for rollerblading....YES I KNOW WERE STUPID AND IMMATURE AND GO TO KIDDIE PLACES...IM AWARE. So we get there, and its closed. Bummer. So I get dropped of home, run into my room, press redial and call Phil. Once again we fall asleep on the phone and i wake up to him saying good morning. I love those mornings.

Halloween night was SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO crazy...and if youd like to read about this then go to www.xanga.com/an_uber_emo_chick thank you.

Lets skip ahead to school...

   I talked to Phil last night...We got on the phone at like 7pm and ended up falling asleep around 11:40 or something like that...he woke up every other hour to see if I was still there. Then after my alarm went off i noticed I was still holding the phone...then I hear "Good morning Kaity" I was like :o :D!!! *smiles* "good morning Phil" ... then we talked for another half an hour till my grandmum came downstairs and yelled at me to get dressed and return to the noisy halls of SHS...see i wake up an hour before hes supposed to. So I felt really bad so when we said bye I told him to get sleep...which hopfully he did. Then he told me hell be home around 2:50. So I shall call him right when I get home...well later because i get home around 2:20 since school gets out at like 2:15. Anyway...Im having a great morning this morning. And Im supposed to be in the lower 9 building taking a History test that I missed...but guess what. I couldnt care less and I feel great about it.

                        Its a beautiful day,
                              Zindy

   So Rachel sent me this email right? And it was of this band...and one of the pictures the guy was holding his penis, now...these were publisized photographs...and if I do say so...his wang wasnt up to size. haha. But still...the drummer was pretty effin hot. Here, I shall show you the photos...

..............THIS IS ROBBY............................................................

   #2: I have a REALLY weird taste in my mouth right now
   #3: The infamous Rachel-the-sexybeast just gave me an email to address to and get free My Chemical Romance tickets!!! I love that whore...Rachel herself
   #4: People keep telling me how they love my hair today (because Im wearing it down) but I think i look like a discombobulated silk pillow
   #5: Im just doing this whole recording whatever right now because I like hitting the # button
   #6: I think I should probably stop
   #7: But as you know...tis a fun task
   #8: Alright alright Ill stop
  
   So about Josh. Yes, Josh was sick :0(. Twas a horrible thing. But he still sounds hot when hes got the flu. haha. And his oh so uber New York accent...which is a very interesting thing...is gone when hes sick. So he sounds like wicked American. Well, I would say "Hope he gets better", but he already is. SOO...I hope he got better. Does that work?? Eh? All in favor leave me a comment. Cuz I dont get much of those anymore :0(
   Well I think thats it but Im going to try my bestest and hardestest to get more entries every other day.
                       Amen,
                          Kaity